It's the day after Thanksgiving and I am sitting back reflecting over this season in my life! I will be honest I didn’t expect this season of my life to be where I am. I recently talked about accepting God's No, which was a really hard thing for me, I didn't expect to be starting all the way over. I recently was sitting and thinking of why I am starting over, why did God take away everything that I wanted? why was I feeling that I hit rock bottom? and today it hit me, I had great intentions with my life plans but I didn't fully let God build the foundation for my life. I've spent years in and out of church, I was the church goer thinking that Sunday mornings and a few prayers a week was enough, boy did I learn fast that God's presence wasn't truly in my life nor anywhere in my life plans. My relationship with God has been faulty for years because I didn't include God into my life nor did I seek his will for my life.
Today, I feel I am walking on steady ground. Interesting enough I kept asking why do God allow you to hit absolute rock bottom instead of just fixing what's not working? But that's like putting new tires on a car that won't start, how can we move forward when our problems, mistakes, sins, downfalls, bad seeds break us down and hinders us from moving?
God needs to get rid of everything, somethings were intentionally good but became tainted. So, here I am Thanksgiving week and my mind is going over something special that happens EVERY Thanksgiving. On the week of Thanksgiving God gives me a new desire but it also falls in line of helping people, fashion and creative businesses and this Thanksgiving it really had me thinking, why does God use this time of the year to speak & reveal to me, to give me a craving for something. I turn back to my time at New York Fashion Week and I recall sitting at the Ebay closing party thinking man I have to get people here, for year's I've been trying to gather my why and how for those thoughts and I truly believe that after all I've done and experienced, God has a plan for those thoughts. No, I don't have the answer at this moment but what I do know is that the last 4 years God's been trying to tell me something and show me...I am so happy to be in a better place in my walk with God that hearing his voice I understand and I can follow my truth though him.
This Thanksgiving has proved that foundation is everything and having the right foundation can make or break your life's journey.