In one of my journal entries I asked God to reveal to me what it is that I am completely seeking from him and how I need to get it. I know that I am on the search for the heart of God, beyond “Christian Ideology” but I also know that something in me is truly seeking a space within God’s kingdom and I am having a hard time finding or locating that space.
One thing that has heavily been on my mind is the word vs. the spirit. We hear often in the black community and beyond how the bible was used to make slavery and other things ok, we’ve all seen with our eyes how people (Christians) has used the bible to dictate many things in our society.
What interests me fully is how things seemed to have shifted so much, where in white churches they are more “spirit” led now and how in black churches they are more “word” led. Black churches are so obsessed with the bible, while white churches barely preach on it. Now maybe I’m thinking to deep, but what exactly is going on?
It’s caused me some confliction of where you should be learning about God and how. Who wouldn’t be confused?
As a Black Christian, I have this incredible desire to truly feel the holy spirit, why are our black churches still lacking the need and education of feeling the Holy Spirit. Does the Holy Spirit not align with their “man-made” Christian ideology? Why do white churches, feel the need to only be “in the Kingdom” of God but want members who are told constantly that their culture doesn’t fit into the white vision “kingdom of God.”
I get some overwhelmed that many Christians struggle to understand what life should look like once you are in the will of God. It’s so incredibly black and white and it’s so incredibly annoying.
Why does it feel that for blacks in a white church dying to self seems like much more work than your white neighbor? How does dying to self to a God in a black church, that has still allowed racism and stereotype to make us fearful to be our black self, work?
The black Christian journey comes down sometimes to the word vs. the spirit. What do we defend, which one really allows black individuals to grow spiritually, can there be a mix and if so how? Why isn’t it taught?
Where do you understand God, culture and spirit in the church? Can you find it in either churches? When did the word vs. the spirit start to shape our experience as Blacks in society and Blacks in the church, Does the spirit allow white churches to excuse themselves from cultural struggles, they are so engulfed in the spirit, that they are giving a pass to sit and watch their neighbors be hurt without a word from them because they live in "a kingdom" mindset, the same mindset that doesn't work for Blacks. We can't escape, avoid or overlook because our "God" the same God you sit in this kingdom with everyday, hasn't freed us from the hands of our enemies that attack, mute and destroy people of color in many ways. Does the word bring power and relief to black people, who was once the slaves and in many ways still are? Is it the same with taking the word "nigga" back from white people, are we holding on to the bible because it somehow feels like it's giving us "power" back from white people?
Which one is it the word vs. the spirit that is shaping our experience?